Friday evening was the beginning of my nomad weekend. On this particular trek to Tulsa, I watched my brother fix my car while his wife and I supervised and rocked out to 90's boyband music; I went with my soul-mate-of-a-dear-friend to pick out her wedding dress [& saying she will be the most beautiful bride ever would not even begin do her justice]; I trotted my fabulous mom and fabulous pregnant sister-in-law to my fabulous pregnant best friend's house for a baby-clothing-swap; I attended the engagement luau for the future bride; I took my grandparents out for my Papa's 79th birthday breakfast ...who am I kidding? When I tried to pay for the bill, I thought he might actually beat me with his cane. Needless to say, I allowed him to pay for his own birthday breakfast; and I had lunch with 4 of the most amazing ladies I've ever met.
In spite of knowing that I am happy with my life and where I am at and how I got here, I found myself wondering if my life is as full as it should be.. Have I ever really done anything? Am I already an old maid at the ripe ole age of 24? I was officially the unfortunate bearer of very green feelings - and I don't mean eco-friendly...
After nearly a full day of sad, pitiful, unattractive wallowing, it hit me:
amazing people is because they have something about them that I adore; that I absolutely appreciate; and that I can complement. It dawned on me that I was completely, hopelessly, and happily enveloped in everything that friendship is supposed to be about, and I experienced it all in just 48 short hours. I was so surrounded with LOVE the entire weekend, that it made me question whether or not I was giving it back in the same way. I am so thankful that I can occasionally question my ability to love, because it means that I can put that much more effort into loving
Lord knows I believe it's a private matter between Him and me. But since Jesus understands every weakness of ours (Hebrews 4:15), I will just let it suffice to say that my cup runneth over. I am so full of love and appreciation for everything in my life right now.